I was sitting here at the computer zoning in and out looking to be inspired on something to blog about when Kelly Clarkson’s new song ‘The War Is Over’ came up! Well guess what, it was the inspiration I needed. If you haven’t listened to the song please do so! Something that really stuck out was this:
All I have to say is you don’t deserve me, you don’t deserve me
I’m finally walking away, ’cause you only hurt me
And you’re not worthy
Right now I have no idea what I am writing about, I don’t know what will come forth but I do know that I chose the Deviant Moon Tarot because I feel we need to hear it bluntly. You’ve entered the No Bullshit Zone! So do proceed with caution I focused on this song, the message that was lingering and this is what presented itself.
Three of Swords (Deviant Moon Tarot)
A sad woman stands alone in her chamber as a terrible storm looms in the distance. Her heart has been pierced by an act of betrayal. She touches the tip of one of the swords, trying to determine if the pain she feels is real or imagined.
“Heartbreak. Separation. Stormy relationship. Longing for an absent love.”
Well shit! Who said we could get this emotional? Hmm.. Who ordered this main course! Why is it that we gotta go through such deep shit? Hmm? Was it you? Yes YOU! Reading over there, don’t think I did this all on my lonesome! No no no, You were definitely a part of this. Don’t roll your eyes at me! Okay! We’ll be okay. I promise, so lets do this together.
Relationships are absolutely intense in nature. This can be a Romantic relationship or a Friendship or even a relationship with a loved one. They all have their parts to play and they all ignite very intense emotions. So for people who have experienced these things regarding relationships other than that of a romantic nature this can still work with you just listen to the words and see the underlying meaning. I am going to focus on Romantic Relationships though because I am being told that this is what I need to do. As if I need to be speaking with someone specific right now and I have no idea who you are but if you are reading this, know that this message is specifically for you with the ability to touch many others. It’s time to allow yourself to cry real tears of healing.
You’ve been through some very tight knit loving/chaotic/crazed love/romance with your ex. Someone who you thought really got you, someone you thought loved you and I wont say that they didn’t love you. They loved you as best as they could in that time of your life. You fell deep for this person though, you shared a connection and you thought it was going to be ‘magical’ for quite a long time. Okay it’s time to stop and breathe. Don’t hold in your anger, don’t hold in your emotions right now. You need to let them flow through you. Read and let the emotions flow. You’ve not allowed yourself the ability to heal. Why? You think you’ve dealt with it but you’ve just pushed it away. Don’t tell me your not ready to deal with this because you are. If you wait till you ‘think’ your ready then you’ll always be waiting. There is someone out there waiting for you but you need to get through this part of your journey first. Your heart hurts and is so heavy. You have people in your life that love you and you know that, you have friends/family/kids around you that honor you and that love is amazing but you seek a different love. You seek to share a part of yourself with someone; to grow with them, to feel their love wash over you. It’s yours darlin, it really is! It’s time to go through that heartache though that you’ve pushed away. You may not know how to go about living without that person in your life but know that it is for the best. They were in your life for a reason and now they are out of your life for another reason. Don’t go through the ‘what if’s” and don’t put yourself through torture because you feel you cannot do any better. Stop it! Drama is not going to get you anywhere with this. No. Have a cup of tea or coffee.. Take an hour or so to go through that energy. What happened in that relationship? Feel it. I’m sorry that you don’t want to do this, I really am but it’s time to truly work through this. What happened? What was said? Don’t place blame, don’t go down that road. Just live it, what happened? Why is your heart hurt? Allow the memories to prick your finger if need be, but once they do allow the sharpness of those memories to soften and to release from you. Send love to yourself! Nobody here is to blame, everyone had an experience and know that you are not at fault! The person does not deserve you, they are not worthy of you! Their energy and their love is limited and something that they could not offer you. You deserve someone to love you unconditionally and you will receive that. Work through this, feel it out and release. Cry! Did you just call me a Bitch? LOL That hurt! Oh wait maybe that was the slap you just gave me! DAMN! Seriously, Cry it out. You may think you’ve released it, but you haven’t. Place your awareness directly in your heart, feel yourself IN your heart, and bring up that relationship, bring up that person and let the emotions release, let the visions come to you and release them.
When you are finished releasing all of this, I know you’ll be a bit raw. So do this. Visualize a beautiful Golden sun above your head. See that sun so intense and so strong. Place within that sun the current date and location and present time. Fill that sun with love, joy, courage, strength, Fill it with beauty, acceptance, truth, and vitality. See it get bigger and flood with all of those things! Now see that sun slowly descend to your body, entering your crown and filling yourself up! See it travel down your body until it reaches your feet and let it fill you with all that energy! When you are finished with this, tip over and allow any excess energy to top off. Yawn and stretch. Know that you are loved and that while you have experienced some challenging emotions with past relationships, they all had their reasons and it’s time for you to allow yourself to forgive the situation and be better of it!
What does this card mean to you? What do you see? I’d like to know, leave a comment below!